"Bad things happen to Good People"

No, I am not talking about me. I don’t consider myself a bad person but I am not necessarily a good person. Yesterday I realize what a fantasy world I live in. I understand that my Heavenly Father truly knows each of us and gives us challenges to our ability. I must be too young to have God try my faith too much as of yet. Because I am just in this bubble, where every thing is happy go lucky. God does certain things to remind us how blessed we truly are. At work yesterday they had their 3rd major layoff in the last 8 months. Our department is so small and everyone so valuable, we have managed to avoid any layoffs. But yesterday hit home really hard. Sharon, who is honestly like a second mother to me, was laid off in our department. You have to know what a wonderful person Sharon is. We have a few very religious people here at work, but Sharon is not afraid to talk about God and the influences he makes on her on a daily basis. She is honestly one of the most sincere and positive role models I have had. I can’t tell you how many times I have wanted to just shake Sharon and say “Come on, get upset!” She has more patience than a person should be allowed. Not to mention that she is such a hard honest worker. It makes you wonder, “Why do bad things happen to Good People?” I can’t help but almost feel responsible for what happened. Because I feel that it very much should have been me that lost my job. Do I dare say that if I wasn’t carrying this precious child in the womb, that they would have chosen myself to make the new trek in life. Which would definitely send me on a world wind course. I just want Sharon to know that I love her and that she will be in my prayers. I know she has wonderful AP skills and shouldn’t have a problem finding another job. I am on a new journey as I learn to take on the accounts payable system which I have no experience with and she may get a lot of phone calls from me.

I also wonder about Dan’s grandma. Grandma is such a sweet, old fashion person. With more baking skills than she knows what to do with. She was recently diagnosed with bladder cancer. Oh, how horrible that would be. They gave her 6-8 months. But her positive personality doesn’t believe it and keeps living life with out self-pity. I think how hard it is for Dan to hold on to all of his memories growing up with Grandma, and think further to Daniel’s Parents. One life can have ripple affects on hundreds of others! Heavenly Father has a plan for us, this trial may not be so much for Grandma or even Grandpa as it may be for someone on the side lines watching. I know my eyes have been widened further. God wants us close to him, what better way than to bring us challenges. I love you Grandma and the entire family is praying and thinking about you everyday!